Today I’m all about the intention. I woke before the kids this morning (which means before the light and pretty much before the birds) and lay in bed turning over all the little pages and post-its in my mind, until I realized that I was tense. I became planful and a little anxious just in the process of sorting and sifting my commitments for the day. I forgot to breathe.
At the gym, I was reminded how critical breathing is, though I kept forgetting to do it well or thoughtfully; on the way home, I tried singing along to Adele and realized that my vibrato has become chronic lately not because of age but because of lousy breath support. When I breathe the way I was trained to (as an athlete, as a singer), I remember my wholeness. My posture improves, my face relaxes, the limits of my body become both obvious and right.
I know these things. But still, my busy little brain keeps moving me right past my body and into the next abstraction. This is not how I live best. (For the record, it’s not how anyone lives best: see Jon Kabat Zinn and others’ The Mindful Way Through Depression or most any basic Buddhist or yogic text for more on the power of the breath.)
The agrarian writer and critic Gene Logsdon says that firsthand experience is what makes a good writer. I’d say it’s what makes us good HUMANS — a willingness to be present, with mindfulness and intention, to whatever shows up.
So today it’s clear to me that the intention, the breath, need to come first. And in my effort to wade in more fully to this rich and rushing life, I need to set those intentions early in the day. Smooth stones in my pocket, I carry them with me.